Search for FDW

Haiz.... The search is on again.

I can give a list of why I need to search again.

She seems "lost" nowadays.

We prayed very hard to ask God for direction. It seems that the "signs" are everywhere. However, I think if we wanna see signs, we will see it. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy lor.... Therefore, we need someone objective to give a sense of whether we should change. My colleagues ask me how much more i can "tahan" her - esp with her pride, ignoring our directions, excuses and mindlessness.

I do not know. BJ is still asking for kakak. After calling and talking to her, he got more moody. (wrong move)

Just imagine, last night, the whole family was out. We asked her to come down to carry our babies. She went into the lift. Fine. I was rushing to the lift. Lo and Behold, the lift door closed. The lift went up. She didn't tell us that she was going first. Fine. She knew how to operate the lift. These kind of incidents happen a number of times already. I feel like tearing my hair out.
A stranger who sees someone coming toward the lift would have waited. But this was our FDW.

I think I can start a blog on her misdeeds..... But what for? I feel that if things do not work out, we get angry, and she gets equally angry as well. Maybe the best thing to do is to part with her, and go through another cycle of FDW hunting.....